Definition of Sugar High: Feelings of elation and euphoria associated with the moments after eating sugar-filled foods. (per Idiomquest.com)( I will get to the "sugar" high at end of post.)
I have been stirred in my spirit about being more consistent in STUDYING the Holy Bible. I have read in the Holy Bible. I have heard passages in the Holy Bible. However, I have be neglectful of studying the Word of God consistently. Let me explain why...(you may want to read this in parts. It is a long post.)
Today I am going to share a life changing event...a forever life changing event. I have shared this with many in my circle of influence but today I go public. Today I put myself in a vulnerable position of ridicule, questionable credibility and other not so favorable labels by both the unbeliever in Christ and the committed Christian as well. However, I know the truth and I will not waver...I am living in my joy of a miracle.
October 2011: I was no longer employed. I so called took an "early retirement" to take care of some serious health issues. High blood pressure, joint pain, and obesity were taking over my ability to work and perform daily care duties. I got a shot in my knee after having several tests, dr visits and a MRI done. I had a small tear in my left knee.
November 2011: I realized that I did not have any ulcers in my mouth which are symptoms of my Auto Immune disease of Behcets. I didn't realize this earlier due to the distraction of my other ailments. I had always had a blister/ulcer somewhere - mouth, throat, or pubic area - for the previous 10 years. I tapered off Prednisone. I had taken Prednisone for 10 years and had gained 100 pounds.
January 2012: I was totally dependent on my husband for ALL my hygiene, dressing, and mobile needs. It was a humiliating and most humbling experience. I saw my internist who diagnosed me with Fibrobromyalgia. I couldn't accept this mystery diagnosis. I saw my rheumatologist who was pleased to confirm that my Behcets was in remission. He also confirmed my Fibromyalgia diagnosis. I saw my internist again with again a Fibromyalgia diagnosis and carpal tunnel syndrome in both wrists. I continued on my scripts for Pain Medication. Kevin continued to take care of all my physical needs.
The Miracle: Monday, February 27, 2012.
It was the day before my 25th Wedding Anniversary. My son Tim and I had been going to the gym. Swimming and exercising in the pool helped to relieve pain. I had to tell Tim that I couldnt go to the gym that day. I said maybe later in the evening we would go. I went to my room to take a nap. I was in much pain. Before I went to sleep, I sat on my bed. I literally spoke outloud to Jesus as I prayed. I don't remember verbatim what I said but it was sincere and of a clear mind. Here is what I basically said.
"Jesus, thank you for my life. I asked you 10 years ago, when I didn't know what my Behcets disease and its treatments would do to my body, to please let me live to see my youngest son graduate high school. Dear Lord, you have blessed me in being able to see not only see Tim graduate high school, but also, Cory graduate college, the birth of my 1st grandchild, John Thomas, and the celebration of being married for 25 years. I am grateful. Jesus, I am tired in my body and the pain is more than I can bear. I don't want to be on pain medication in my future. I don't want this quality of life. You can have my husband, sons, grandchild and all whom I hold dear. You can have my life. I genuinely surrender all. If I don't wake today, it is well with my soul. I don't love this world anymore. I want you Jesus." After praying this, I layed on my bed and fell asleep for 3 hours.
When I woke up, I was able to move my legs on their own and place them on the floor. I usually would lift my legs with my hands or have Kevin help me out of bed. I went to the restroom and was able to get up off the komode without pulling up on the vanity. I washed my hands and looked in the mirror. I looked different. I had a smile. I stood there and breathed in. I couldn't feel any body pain - no aches, pressure, sharpness, or tinges of pain. I walked in the kitchen and waited for the pain to start. The pain was GONE! I could reach up, bend down, sit and stand up, and hugs didn't hurt! I called my husband, told my household, and called Brooke my heart daughter to come and see me. I had to share! It was a true miracle. I heard in my spirit, "...you gave me your whole life without reservation. There are no barriers, no conditions, no restrictions, nothing held back...I have your whole heart. You are ready to meet me without condition. I still have purpose for your life."
June 2012: Today, I still have no Fibromyalgia pain! I am still ready to go when I am called. Death does not scare nor worry me. As Christians we say that we surrender all and that I will go and do as Jesus asks, but often we think...just don't take me before my kids grow up, or I can't leave my job, or I have my spouse to take care of or another family member needs me. We have our conditions. Friends, let me testify that when we truly give our all - meaning our emotional attachments specifically - there is a freedom and peace that energizes you to want to live for Christ in a whole new way. (Funny disclaimer however...I still won't get on a cruise ship for fear of sinking and drowning. It's not that I am not ready to die but how I will die. Lol!)
So let's talk "Sugar High". After experiencing my miracle, I couldn't share enough. I would cry and the people I shared with would cry. I was in church at most every service, reading my devotionals in the morning, listening to quality TV, internet and radio Christian speakers of the Word. I was reading books and Christian literature. I just loved my "spoon fed" Word. It was so sweet to my life. It fueled my sharing and my praise. But just like a sugar high, the bottom falls out between the moments of elation that comes with each dose of sugar. It was between these spoons of sugar - the sweetness of God's word - that my spirit would weaken. It was then that as I posted yesterday that my witness would weaken and I wouldn't reflect the peace of Jesus.
Definition of Sugar Crash:
The sudden drop in energy associated with a drop in blood sugar.
Friends, studying the Holy Bible reveals who our powerful Lord God is. It is a book filled with empowering, dense, stamina building "meat". It is our protein that builds our spiritual muscles. I am doing as much strength training, muscle building exercising I can in the swimming pool. I want to have the energy and physical ability to care for myself and others. I invest well over an hour 4-5 days a week doing this. It is imperative for me to study the Holy Bible for the same reasons. I need strength and stamina to do what He wants me to do and to find out what He wants me to do and how to do it. It will take personal investment of my time to search, read and listen to His revelations.
Friends, if you are experiencing drops in energy to attend church, study your Holy Bible, or just making the right and wise choices in your life, maybe you too are on a "sugar high". Maybe the spoon fed sweetness of God's Word is not keeping you strong enough to be consistent. If you are experiencing a "sugar crash" between church services, then assess the time you are spending in the Word of God. Maybe you need some strength building "meat". The taste is so good. You will find contentment and life will have some yummy blessings...like some creamy gravy.
I will be studying more. I know my sugar high is gone. It is time to get back to the Holy Bible. I will still enjoy my spoon fed sweets shared with me...but they will be desserts not the main meal.
You are loved, acf
It was the day before my 25th Wedding Anniversary. My son Tim and I had been going to the gym. Swimming and exercising in the pool helped to relieve pain. I had to tell Tim that I couldnt go to the gym that day. I said maybe later in the evening we would go. I went to my room to take a nap. I was in much pain. Before I went to sleep, I sat on my bed. I literally spoke outloud to Jesus as I prayed. I don't remember verbatim what I said but it was sincere and of a clear mind. Here is what I basically said.
"Jesus, thank you for my life. I asked you 10 years ago, when I didn't know what my Behcets disease and its treatments would do to my body, to please let me live to see my youngest son graduate high school. Dear Lord, you have blessed me in being able to see not only see Tim graduate high school, but also, Cory graduate college, the birth of my 1st grandchild, John Thomas, and the celebration of being married for 25 years. I am grateful. Jesus, I am tired in my body and the pain is more than I can bear. I don't want to be on pain medication in my future. I don't want this quality of life. You can have my husband, sons, grandchild and all whom I hold dear. You can have my life. I genuinely surrender all. If I don't wake today, it is well with my soul. I don't love this world anymore. I want you Jesus." After praying this, I layed on my bed and fell asleep for 3 hours.
When I woke up, I was able to move my legs on their own and place them on the floor. I usually would lift my legs with my hands or have Kevin help me out of bed. I went to the restroom and was able to get up off the komode without pulling up on the vanity. I washed my hands and looked in the mirror. I looked different. I had a smile. I stood there and breathed in. I couldn't feel any body pain - no aches, pressure, sharpness, or tinges of pain. I walked in the kitchen and waited for the pain to start. The pain was GONE! I could reach up, bend down, sit and stand up, and hugs didn't hurt! I called my husband, told my household, and called Brooke my heart daughter to come and see me. I had to share! It was a true miracle. I heard in my spirit, "...you gave me your whole life without reservation. There are no barriers, no conditions, no restrictions, nothing held back...I have your whole heart. You are ready to meet me without condition. I still have purpose for your life."
June 2012: Today, I still have no Fibromyalgia pain! I am still ready to go when I am called. Death does not scare nor worry me. As Christians we say that we surrender all and that I will go and do as Jesus asks, but often we think...just don't take me before my kids grow up, or I can't leave my job, or I have my spouse to take care of or another family member needs me. We have our conditions. Friends, let me testify that when we truly give our all - meaning our emotional attachments specifically - there is a freedom and peace that energizes you to want to live for Christ in a whole new way. (Funny disclaimer however...I still won't get on a cruise ship for fear of sinking and drowning. It's not that I am not ready to die but how I will die. Lol!)
So let's talk "Sugar High". After experiencing my miracle, I couldn't share enough. I would cry and the people I shared with would cry. I was in church at most every service, reading my devotionals in the morning, listening to quality TV, internet and radio Christian speakers of the Word. I was reading books and Christian literature. I just loved my "spoon fed" Word. It was so sweet to my life. It fueled my sharing and my praise. But just like a sugar high, the bottom falls out between the moments of elation that comes with each dose of sugar. It was between these spoons of sugar - the sweetness of God's word - that my spirit would weaken. It was then that as I posted yesterday that my witness would weaken and I wouldn't reflect the peace of Jesus.
Definition of Sugar Crash:
The sudden drop in energy associated with a drop in blood sugar.
Friends, studying the Holy Bible reveals who our powerful Lord God is. It is a book filled with empowering, dense, stamina building "meat". It is our protein that builds our spiritual muscles. I am doing as much strength training, muscle building exercising I can in the swimming pool. I want to have the energy and physical ability to care for myself and others. I invest well over an hour 4-5 days a week doing this. It is imperative for me to study the Holy Bible for the same reasons. I need strength and stamina to do what He wants me to do and to find out what He wants me to do and how to do it. It will take personal investment of my time to search, read and listen to His revelations.
Friends, if you are experiencing drops in energy to attend church, study your Holy Bible, or just making the right and wise choices in your life, maybe you too are on a "sugar high". Maybe the spoon fed sweetness of God's Word is not keeping you strong enough to be consistent. If you are experiencing a "sugar crash" between church services, then assess the time you are spending in the Word of God. Maybe you need some strength building "meat". The taste is so good. You will find contentment and life will have some yummy blessings...like some creamy gravy.
I will be studying more. I know my sugar high is gone. It is time to get back to the Holy Bible. I will still enjoy my spoon fed sweets shared with me...but they will be desserts not the main meal.
You are loved, acf
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