Potato Motivation

My husband has been diagnosed with Diabetes. He is a slender man. He is fairly active. However, he is highly stressed and has a poor diet. He is addicted to Potatoes in any form, but most especially french fries. Thereby, he has diabetes and not to mention a family history.


I was told this on Tuesday and by Wednesday we had a new diet, execise equipment upstairs, and I have gently encouraged him to make good choices.  I cannot even imagine an unhealthy Kevin.  I won't have it.  I will do all I can to help him control his blood sugar.  I am there every morning by his side supporting him as he takes his sugar count.  In two days, we have seen it drop from 298 to 217.  He will be taken care of.  I love him. 

Friends, I have an incredible surge of energy and ambition to see my husband to health, but here's the question in my mind, "Anna why weren't your health concerns enough to motivate you with such passion, and energy to lose weight and get healthy."  I have did the yo-yo thing for weeks now, Up 2-4 pounds and down 2-4 pounds.  I have loss 4 pounds this week.  I have eaten healthy and exercised each day.  What's my motivation this time, I love my husband and want to help him succeed.

There is something wrong with this picture, right?  Pray my friends please.  Why don't I love myself enough?  I have said before I can love and encourage others but why won't I apply it to me?  I have said "I wish I could love myself like others love me."  Now before you throw you hands up in the air and say "I am hopeless or wanting attention." I have learned an important thing about my "inner lack" if you will.  IT IS A SIN.

I believe my lack of compassion and love for myself stems from many things, but specifically GUILT.  I still struggle with asking forgiveness for repetitive sins, and past sins, and even unintentional sins by association.  I daily ask God to forgive my sins but somehow I don't believe they really are.  Some can call this a lack of faith but the reality is it a prideful and a denial of the Cross.  I say I am sorry and repent and turn away from sin.  I am clear from these sins in Jesus name.  Then with I sin again, I feel guilt.  "How can I be forgiven for yet sinning again in the same way?"  "If I hadn't done this in the past, this wouldn't be happening to me." etc.

Friends, here is where the lesson learned today is revealed.  

• OUR GOD DOES NOT REMEMBER OUR SINS.
• HIS SON JESUS CHRIST DIED FOR MY SINS.
• THERE IS NO LIMIT TO FORGIVENESS. 
• I MUST BE REPENTIVE.
• OUR GOD IS SLOW TO ANGER AND HIS LOVE IS EVERLASTING.
• WHO AM I TO DENY THE POWER OF THE CROSS?
• I CAN MOVE MOUNTAINS WITH A GRAIN OF MUSTARD SEED.
• JESUS LOVES ME.

Friends, I love you.  I am going to get this thing..."I love me, and Jesus loves me MORE." 


Click below for my anthem today.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ag4S5xe4yl4