Keeping Appointments

As life would pose these days, another challenge and another opportunity to do the Godly thing has positioned itself to war with me (and Kev). I was enjoying posting some pics to Facebook this morning. As part of it, I was enjoying posting some pics of my son, Tim. I love my Tim. He is my son and nothing will change that love. I labeled my pics of him "Rebel with a cause". The "cause" to defeat authority...aaaugh! We have a recent history of struggles, however, I think "history" is no longer the word. I headed up to his room to offer him some supper money before he left for work and all "blank" broke loose. Another defiance and more tears for this mom.

Tough love has been taught for some time now, but I never really bought it (should of). I have been told about military schools, Christians schools, and Home School. I don't even want to continue talking about all our efforts to intervene in our son's self destruction. We will continue to seek guidance and direction. I have a friend I can turn to for emotional support being "she has been there and done that."



I want to post about disappointments. I learned a long time ago that we should look at our "disappointments" as "His Appointments." We should examine our behaviors when in the midst of a disappointment so as to "not" overreact and discredit our Godly nature. Then we need to look for the "good" in midst of our bad feelings, hurts, and frustrations. God can use our disappointments. He may allow for them. He may want to get our attention and have us seek His will and reason.

I don't know what more I can say or do to assure my Tim that I love him no matter what, and that I support his identity, and personality as long as they are genuine traits and not results of artificial or negative influences. Life is very complicated with Tim. If God is appointing this time with Tim for a significant reason, then I pray He will make it clear and direct me to handle my son as He would want me too. Right now I haven't prayed and want to toss him to the road...just for peace and for my selfish well being. BUT Girlfriends, I must walk the talk. I need to show a Godly side. The side of God that is firm, strong, resilient, and gentle as a lamb.

God loves me and all my imperfections. He doesn't leave me to myself but gives me correction and direction. He will not back down from His word and command for us to be like Him. As a parent, I can do no less. I must point my son in the right direction and pray he takes the first step to "deliverance" from evil.

So, ladies, I have been disappointed today, but I won't falter. I will cry. I may be "down". I will be imperfect. But, I will recognize "His appointment." Please pray for Tim.

Have a great evening...relax it's Friday!