My "Dreamy" Life

Good Morning Girlfriends,

I missed posting yesterday.  I was sick.  Sorry.  I know I am sounding like one of those friends who are always sick.  You hate to ask them how they are doing because there is something always wrong.  But, you are stuck with "I'm Sick" today.  I started with a cold, then a cough, and now I got the whole respiratory thing going on.  So to avoid a repeat of last month, I stayed on the sofa yesterday.  I would like to say I was real spiritual and read and studied while bed ridden but I had such a headache and breathing struggle, I couldn't.  Today I have to clean the germs out of my house no matter how I feel.  I sat there yesterday and watched the dust bunnies play, the webs dance, and the dishes pile up still dressed in food.  Kevin has been working around the clock.  This morning he slept in til 8. He said he will help me get things back in order.  Yahoo!  

This past week I have had several long dreams.  They were very insightful.  I believe they had some meaning to them.  They really didn't make sense as far as who was in them and what was taking place but they seem to bring out what who I was and what I think.  It was strange.  I don't want to sound new age or mystic.  I will say though I couldn't let them go, and in the process I found out some things about myself.

One dream showed me that I had some responsibility to tend to.  I had friends there with me in my presence but they were not there to help but support me by being there.  In fact they were enjoying conversation, and shopping while I was hanging around the venue to introduce a very important person.  I wanted to be with them so badly.  I could hardly wait until my time was up and I could be with them.  My time was never up.  I kept going to different areas to prepare to introduce this person - a school principal?. At one point I had a lady and young child with me in a car and I purposely wrecked to get out of my schedule, but got a ride back to my venue.  Ladies, I learned that no matter what the task set before me, I am to meet the responsibility and see it to completion with or without those who I am close to.  I learned that I struggle with commitment and must be a Godly woman of integrity.

The other dream involved a friend that I am very close to.  She is a single mom and has 2 children.  She and I are close.  I tend to treat her like a daughter, complete with unsolicited advice and some mild criticism.  I call it being real...she calls it nagging.  She is right.  I dreamed she and I had a huge fight over her choice of a boyfriend. One who was in her life before and caused her grief.  She had lied to me and said he contacted her and I knew she contacted him.  I told her I would never believe her again and this guy was not welcomed in my home (which by the way was huge and beautiful).  The funny thing is that it wasn't her ex husband whom I could see having this kind of reaction.  She was crying hard in the dream and Kevin told her not to worry and he would help her.  I told him that he would not and she was to do this on her own.  The language was horrible.   She pulled out the big guns and took her children away from me.  She came back in the dream to pick up stuff in an unfamiliar car. I begged her to let me see the kids.  The little girl was in the back seat.  She came out of the car and gave me a hug.   My friend was crying but took her away.  It was horrible!!!!  I followed her to an old home and asked her to talk to me.  She met me on the sidewalk.  I woke up!!!

I absolutely love this girl, but I am a "nag".  I don't want her hurt and I want an awesome husband and life for her.  However, she is 26.  She is smart, not too much common sense but smart and managing her household just fine without me.  Her kids are healthy and well.  She does seek my advice and she listens when we talk spiritual stuff.  She is very receptive.  I tend to not always treat her as an adult however.  She can see and be in relationship with whomever she wants to and I must pray that she will make Godly decisions.  I learned that I must love and make myself available to this girl in a comfortable and non threatening way.  She will survive this world with or without me.  I want her to include me.  I value her not just her kids.  By the way, I have been thinking of her ex.  He has hurt her deeply, but she still maintains a amiable relationship with him.  This is a good thing for the kids.  I have been moved to pray for this guy...it is so hard, but it is a God thing.  I can do this because I am a "God" girl...ok old woman.  Lol!

Our Father God gave us His word to teach and direct our lives.  We don't have to depend on dreams or other resources to enhance or define our lives.  I am so glad for this.  I am looking forward to purchasing a new Bible this week.  It is my Valentine/Anniversary gift.  I am however glad that my dreams didn't go to waste.  They were disturbing enough to make me look at my life and put things back into perspective.  

I love you, friends.  We'll chat Monday.